I finally have my book in hand. For a day or so, I talked myself around getting the book. I was in denial. I was desperately trying to convince myself that I am not an emotional eater. Yeah, I know after all of that stuff I said the other day, I still returned to thinking that maybe, just maybe I was eating to live......like my body really requires double chocolate cupcakes, ruffles and french onion dip, doritos, with diet coke on the side to function. It took me nearly having a mental breakdown while I struggled to function through the chaos of a day with 6 kids, and 1 husband all talking to me at the same time, all needing something different but at the same time without turning to food to realize that just maybe I'm an emotional eating. So, bright and early this morning I drove to Barnes and Noble and picked up "Women, Food, and God." The author Geneen Roth is really on to something. I walked into Barnes and Noble to find a wonderful display of several of her books. I found myself torn between which books to purchase. I think I need them all! Since I only had a few dollars on my Barnes and Noble gift card, I had to choose. If only you could have seen me standing in front of the Geneen Roth display counting up whats left on my gift cards while the voices of little ones circled around my head, "Mommy, can I get this book, what about a puzzle, can you do this, can I go over there, do you like this shape, do you like this???......" Nothing at that moment seemed as important and getting the tools to help me get free. I've made a list in no particular order. I'm circulating this list out to friends and family members because my birthday is only a week away and we all know that I don't need anymore junk to fill my house that I will eventually end up blogging about b/c I will have to clean it, remove it, or the kids will break it. What I really want for my birthday is to be able to control my eating and lose this extra weight that I have been dragging around with me for the past 14 or so years. Its actually scary to think that I may be on the verge of getting free. There is self control around the corner for me. I can't wait, I think this just might be my year.
Breaking Free from Emotional Eating
3. Appetites — On the Search for True Nourishment
4. Feeding the Hungry Heart
5. When You Eat at the Refrigerator, Pull Up a Chair
6. Why Weight? A Guide to Ending Compulsive Eating
7. The Craggy Hole in My Heart and the Cat Who Fixed It